Shithard!

Hi people on earth!

It has been awhile since my last post. I mean AWHILE. Since I am suffering severe pleasure of jobless tonight then I decided to post something up but I am not sure what to post actually. Owh I notice the layout is changed and there is a president of creativity WOW! I must have missed that part.

With no more school to attend and no more study to concentrate, fellow Bruneian HO7 are jobless. I must say that I really apreciate it when our enthuasiam to find job to kill our joblessness and penniless sparked off eagerly. hahahah But the interest came and went by with the wind. Today, we eagerly photocopied our certificates. The next day, we searched for vacancy and the day after next, we are no longer interested. The spark met the dead end. Only when we realised that we only got 2 ringgits in our wallets then the spark lit off again. But the cycle repeats itself leaving us with excessive jobless issue.

I am not sure whether I should consider myself lucky or otherwise. I got a job last two weeks which I didnt have to busily send my CVs and certs. The job searched for me. Damm! I know I sounded lucky but what happened was shithard. I job a partime job at TA Morgen yg kadainya tutup udah. It was for the 10 days of bookfair in the Indoor Stadium. I can assure you that two weeks are pain in the ass.

First of working, I wiped THOUSANDS of books in the very HOT, stuffy and shitty warehouse. Figure, I hate books since then. I packed the books and transported everything to the indoor stadium. People may say that we start from the very bottom but I say I start from the UNDERGROUND.

I hope for a better day on the second day. But my hope was buried six feet under. I had to unpack all the books and arranged accordingly to its specification. It took me two days to do this. Crap! It is alot easier to face with alive ppl rather than dead and heavy books. It was stressing enough that another thousands books were left to unpack but Izzat's temptation of quitting and the fact that I might be labelled as irresponsible person made me wanna commit suicide and die instantly.

I wanted to quit but this was not the quit I want to commit. I always finish what I have started. NAH, ya odah. hahha and jua the fact that there will be a person suffered from my decision to quit then I decided not to call it off and bear with the agony.

The next 10 days were all about public relation. Shit they werent. They were all about embrassment, humiliation and bitchiness. I suffered bitchslap by customers and humiliated by customers who looked down on me and came into thinking that I AM PMB student CRAP! But what to do, customer is the boss!

March tia udah!

Laju jua masa berlalu ane ah.. Nah bulan mac tia udah. 2 bulan udah tane di tahun 2010 ane....huhuhu hmm....... coughresultcough

anyway, im still bored tapi ari ane okay lah ada jua keraja kan dibuat inda jua seboring weekend ari atu. so yea and bulan march ane MEMOO'S month ne eh.... inda g lama ko 19tahun yaww... 11hari g haha sma tah umur tane tu tapi tatap plg aku masih senior sikit tu ah dari sudut umur.hahaha

bah bah atu sja... 

Bored!

Aku macam aher2 ane mcm boring berabis sebab nada kan dibuat, prep pun inda g cukup untuk memenuhi masaku. internet pun inda jua dpt menghilangkan keboringan ku ane. most of the time aku nadakan dibuat, kan membuat REVISION kali ku....eh apa eh alum... batah jua lagi exam hmm hmm i think i'll reconsider revising my subjects mun aku on the verge boring hantap nanti. errr.... sure macam banar aku ah.

atu bah kamu suma pa khabarnya sekarang ane? bahapa sja kamu cuti ane? plan kamu apatah ne lapas ane?

soooooo i guess atu sja kali ah.

sama guys update deh blog ane.... hahaha and memoo rupanya ada president of creativity jua blog ane. hahaha

bah bah adios.

Exams! Exams! Exams!

Well, Its also the same for me as the rest of the people who will be having the exams.. Zaw n Wajee~ We will face it together :) Although we are not in the same school but the way you guys are feeling now, Huh~ I feel it too.. Frustrating but thats how it goes.

I have 8 modules to do in this January Exams.. Phew~ I dunno how am I gonna cope with it. I dont even know whether I have already prepared for it or not :s SIGH!!

This is what happened by the time I came to my saturation point, I feel like I cant do more than what I have been told..

But no matter whats gonna happen~

ALLAH is by our sides..

Just pray and do whatever you think you can do best!

Soo all the best to you people!!

Exam is coming... 

                     Need to focus........

                      

Wish I could be there with u guys....

What bout it?

I hate it when u noe u will do something terribly/horribly but then there was just not enough energy left in you to do some preparation before facing the challenge. In the end u just cant seem to be bother anymore though u noe it is essential for u to excel. When it's time to face the music, ur mind just turnd blank and everything startd to jumble mumble. Ur mind is also giving up on you. And so in the end there's just nothing u can do about it apart from giving ur best effort and pray luck will be by ur side. i guess this is where u noe ur best wasnt good enough. but then again u are too tired too even think about the outcomes u ll be facing. the more u think about it the closer u r to come to a realisation that it was a TOTAL disaster and u messed up BIG time. Too late now....... and u will try ur best to not think about it... 

You were too exhausted already from the start and ur body has already given up on you since the beginning. All u need is actually TIME. to gain the energy, to have a lil bit of rest and to set ur mind back on track but that is the one thing u dont have....................

living a busy life and continuously rushing for datelines are just too tiring. It is just too much for one person. And one day u will feel as if the burdens of the whole world are on ur shoulder and ur body will slowly give up on you. Thus never hang on too long and remember also not to let go too soon. 

Completing an arduous journey!!

Last half term ive spent most of my time WALKING. Aku  inda turun ke London sebab aku ada walking expedition for my DofE. 

Halton Training Camp. The place was HELL, feeling misery was inevitable.

Then start my LONG journey for 4 days and 3 nights with an average of 9 hours walking a day on Tuesday. During the whole journey since day 1 macam aku kept thinking 'when will this gonna end? why did i join DofE in the first place? mana kan campsitenya ane?'

That's my 17 kilo rucksack that i have to carry with me sepanjang the journey btw. 

The result of carrying it= bruises arah pinggang and shoulders

Naik bukit day1. ane okay lah pasal masih fresh kan day 1 lah konon and ane macam baru the first 30 minutes of day1. 

Kalau ada naik bukit mesti ada turun bukit jua. turun bukit okay lah jua masa day1, lutut masih okay.

At the summit of mount ingelborough, the highest peak out the 3 peaks of yorkshire moors. baik jua naik gunung ane masa day1. kepisan udah sorg2. arah the summit very lah foggy inda berapa nampak. ane alum g setengah hari of walking. kan menangis udah rasanya. masa day1 we had our lunch at the summit. 

ane turun the mountain so kan menuju campsite. not bad... masih jua okay. tapi masih g jauh from campsite. rasanya mcm forever bejalan ah.

Ane berehat. chilling dulu for 5 minutes after walking for a few miles.

Day 2, turun bukit curam. perlahan berabis sorg2 turun except for the guy yg duduk2 atu berlari turun iatah ia dulu cross the bridge. 

Lapas lunch masa day2. hujan labat tia so tepaksa pakai waterproof jacket. iatah usul kami ne  masa lunch rucksack yg beribu kilo baratnya atu tah jadi tempat duduk kami. 

Ane masa day 3, hampar dah... baru lapas naik bukit and ane chilling dulu, mengambil nafas. pasal lapas atu ada g bukit kan dinaiki.  kusut kali ah... and masa day3 kami macam naik turun bukit saja ada 3 ke 4 bukit kali.

Day 3 macam never ending the path. berabis2 hampar dah, inda g kira kamah kah inda duduk saja dimana2. inda g tecakap bah kami ah... kepisan berabis dah.

 At the camp site. Lapas siap dirikan tent. kan get ready for dinner.

Inside our tent. aku, lyn and lena pakai tent untuk 2 org pasal dorg nada tent untuk 3 org so kami besampit lah dalam tent ah. packd berabis tent kami ah.

Day 3. At the last camp site. happy lah.... bsuk last day. tapi the journey kan k camp site ane, gila seksa... saat akhir kan smpai k camp site ane pun naik bukit bah. i injured my knees so aku tepaksa drag kaki throughout the whole journey. gila udah smpai nyaman jua rasa ati.. the last camp site was fun. yg plg best out of the three campsite yg kami aga. Ane duduk dulu before pasang tent.

Memasak dinner. malam atu kami mcm masak and makan suma makanan kami yg tinggal pasal bsuk last day and supaya ringan beg. well inda plg make that much difference but then ringan sikit lah. sikit saja kurangnya.

Last day... inda sabar kan balik. last day was the best day cause kami bejalan for 11 km saja and inda byk bukit and mcm a walk in the park saja. Byk rehat and we had an hour lunch break  sbb kami mesti dtg arah the checkpoint by 1.30pm and kami awal by 2 jam. so iatah that day chill lah sja. cool!

 

Checkpoint kami tu nah castle ah... saat saat akhir expedition. castle atu mcm 100m away kali saja so obviously everyone was excited....

FINALLY!!! after walking about 80km for 4 days sampai jua ke penghujungnya. kali udah abis the expedition everyone was in disbelief mcm 'wow it's relly over'  

 

This was the whole group.

melvin, lyn, lena,zaw,amelia, catherine and callum kami with our two assessors.

btw our group did really well, kami smpai at every checkpoint either on time or awal... and we all pass the expedition...... 

it was an amazing experience *seksa plg* tapi im proud of myself to be able to complete the journey despite of my two bad knees and injured shoulder. To say i will want to go on a walking expedition again, no way man, never, let that one be the last. sepanjang walking atu inda plg beranti2 menyumpah2 dalam hati ah. bangun selalu 5.30am, start bejalan kul 7pagi smpai kul 4 lalu.udah abis the expedition baru tah ku dpt ckp all the positive things ive gained from the expedition, mun dtanya masa sdg2 bejalan, alum... abis2 ku ckp 'this expedition depresses me' i was miserable for most of the time tho except for the last day. nevertheless, it was relly amazing (seriously, not everyone cud survive the arduous journey)the journey was remarkable and i will always remember it.... *sigh* 

It was indeed a nice way to celebrate my 19th bday!=p haha It was memorable...

ZAWANI ISHAK

when life gets tough, all you need is faith and perseverance to get through it. And friends to support you.