My story...

Greeting earthlings....

Kita telah digegarkan dengan satu berita yang sangat menggemparkan. Ramai yang terkejut dengan berita ini(well sadang org2 yang tertentu plg saja tu). Pasal the 25 students yang telah dianugerahkan scholarship DANA. And Im one of the recipients...(which im grateful of)

Well, everyone is buzzingabout this scholarship thingie so here's my story about this whole scholarship thing:


WARNING: Long post ahead cause zaw's talking. So to anyone who hate long sentences and allergic to long wordy essay, please do not continue reading.




Ok you've decided to continue. Well just bear with me as i let my heart out...

On 19May, dorg yang dapat scholarship telah kana umumkan. And aku bukan one of them. So I ve promised myself to let go the pain and let it be.

I said to myself ,"I've missed this time but dont worry i'll get it next time" With that promise i try to be stronger and live everyday like usual. It turn out great, the fact that i'll not be leaving Brunei this year was not at all a disadvantage. I was happy with my life cause i dont have to leave my beloved friends and family. Aku telah belajar menerima kenyataan kerana saya percaya itu adalah yang terbaik untuk saya.

Then on 27 July i have received a call from MOE telling me to come to a briefing on Monday at 2pm. With no high expectation in mind,i just let the thought of that phone call fades. At that time I was busy shopping and searching the perfect gifts for my dearest scholarshipian friends with my beloved friends (fyzah,bonda,fiqah,tiqah,feruz,sad and fajin).

That night a friend of my mine told me to believe in second chance. I dont want to go through the pain of rejection again so i didnt want to believe. Then came monday,I was still in the state of denial thinking that it will only be a motivational talk or probably kami kana bagi rejection letter.

When I saw the list with my name stated on it, i still didnt want to believe. I dont want to get my hopes high as i dont want to fall again cause it really hurts. The higher i go, the harder the fall so that is why i was being pessimist and all that. I was so scared to fall again and i was afraid that i wont be able to pick myself up again. Plus, since the interviews lagi we always hear false rumours and a lot of stories which were very much untrue. This even makes me more pessimist than ever making me confused what to believe. So when the story came about us getting the scholarship i just let it slip through my mind and pretend i didnt know anything.

Masa tengahari i ended up crying tah plg and telling all my friends that im not ready to go and i dont want to leave,just yet. I want to be with them.

The moment of truth came when one of the officer from MOE told us the good news. For real, i did get the scholarship after all. Sampai ane aku masih alum percaya, rasanya macam mimpi. I wasnt quite sure what i've felt at that moment but for sure i was happy to see LESTER again -thecuteguyyanginterviewsamaaku-haha.... Im happy and sad at the same time. But aku bersyukur sangat2 kerana telah diberi peluang ini sekali lagi. I wont waste it. Syukur Alhamdulillah...

Anyway, I am very grateful for evrything that had happened to me....I once said in my GP class i believe in second chance but why didnt i really believe it when i really should have.

I will no longer be afraid to take another fall cause every fall makes me even stronger and aku percaya semua itu adalah ujian dariNya di mana aku harus menghadapinya dengan redha dan menerimanya dengan hati yang terbuka. It also made me realised that life is full of surprises. Kita yang merancang tetapi Allah yang menentukan.All you got to do is have faith in yourself and wish for the best.

Huhh,i just wanna let it out... So guys, believe you can do it and you can. Percayalah semua yang terjadi itu ada hikmahnya.

OurMoments

Us, ready to fight and conquer our future!

The gals of 5H... Friendship that is built purely from our love for each other

Sorry some are not in the pictures but you know i still Love you guys...

P/s: Im going to stop here, if i continue any further i might even bored myself with my own post. haha...

-Notgonnacryforawhilesomeonetellmetosavemytearsfortherealfarewell-

im out

Love, zaW....

I was once a child who likes reading books with pictures. kalau membaca newspaper pun, flicking through ganya, untuk apa? untuk meliat gambar. this was one of my bad habits that I had to get rid of. 

TOO BAD THOUGH the habit is still there n i have to agree.... I like blog posts yang ada gambar. I always have.

so i rummaged around the picture folders for interesting pictures n I found these....

Say hello to NICOLE. 

Nicole and her special organic cat food yg ia ganya tedapat. padantah labat-labat ke bulu.

cute!! tapi not mine. inda ku sanggup memelihara. just look at mine.

wait. on second thought, i dont want to post picnya. for security reasons. here's nicole again

 bah adang tah. oh wow. 2 posts in a row.

"I'll be home for dinner"

these days, things that happen to me would always have something to do with the biasiswa. Feelings, arguments, occasions, n even the expiry date arah the juice carton can make me go “oh, 28 august. Sudah ku blayar tu”.

N yesterday, it felt good. Because yesterday afternoon, I did something which finally took my mind of the scholarship. I just wanted to settle everything. Send whatever that needs to be sent to the MOE, selesaikan tia apa2 saja yang pending: forms, official cards, everything. Get it over with. I wanted a private moment too. I wanted to be by myself.

 Antah, pokoknya I wanted to stay away from everyone. I didn’t even want to stay at home. So I did this by asking my father whether someone can take me for a drive. A drive to wherever I want to go. Selalunya I must have a purpose kalau kan bejalan sendiri dengan the supir. And I did. I had to send something to MOE. I wanted to do some shopping. But I didn’t tell my father that I desperately need to be alone.

I was looking forward to sitting at the car’s backseat. I wanted to be on a car ride, where u don’t have to worry about anything. You don’t have to worry about striking up a conversation because the person who’s driving is only paid to…… drive. I wanted to be with someone

Who didn’t care whether you’re busy with tissue Premier,

who didnt even bother to look at the side view mirror to see whether mata mu be-aing and

someone who didn’t ask kenapa semana-mana kau sibuk menyiruk ingus.

Someone whose main concern is to just bring u to your destination.

So I’m proud with myself. I took action. I didn’t need anyone to tell me what to do, what to buy, where to go. I was in charge. It was the most guilt-free and relaxed car ride ever. I could singgah to every Indian shop to buy whatever I want, without kana marahi, without worrying kan gagas-gagas balik rumah. I bought myself ice cream. The ultimate comfort food. With my own money.  I found the whole driving/shopping thing very therapeutic. I walked out of supasave, feeling happy and content.

So the next time u need some cheering up, just:

 hire a person to take you for a drive(preferably someone you don’t know)

pasang whatever jiwang song u have and

 enjoy the ride. It works. This works best in taxis pulang. 

 If only the taxis in Brunei are cheap and abundant, I bet everyone will follow what Duffy did in her video Warwick Avenue. 

I would :)

Lyrics to share

Hye, these lyrics are requested by Nurul Aziemah Anawi. So enjoy and dalami tia lagu ah,ziemah. Nyanyi tah puas2.

I Believe I can Fly

I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can flyI believe I can fly
I believe I can fly

See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes silence can seem so loud
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first I know it starts inside of me, oh

If I can see it, then I can be it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

Hey, cuz I believe in me, ohIf I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothign to it
Hey, if I just spread my wings
I can flyI can flyI can fly, hey
If I just spread my wings
I can fly
Fly-eye-eye

Leaving on a jet plane

All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin' it's early morn
The taxi's waitin' he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet planeDon't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

P/s: I hate to leave you guys....But tanx for everything tho'! Luvya all.

Love,
someonewhowillmissyouguys
zaW

Special in our own way

Greetings again... Im back (again) to share a motivational story with you guys so hopefully you guys will be motivated. Here's a story about twenty dollars...


Twenty Dollars


A well known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20 bill. In the room of 200, he asked. "Who would like this $20 bill?"

Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you - but first, let me do this."

He proceeded to crumple the 20 dollar note up. He then asked. "Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air.


"Well," he replied, "what if I do this?" He dropped it on theground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. "Now, who still wants it?"

Still the hands went into the air.

"My friends, you have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20.

Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless; but no matter what happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value.

Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who love you. The worth of our lives comes, not in what we do or who we know, but by ...WHO WE ARE.You are special - don't ever forget it."

Just be yourself, remember you are special in your own way.

P/s: Bah guys when are you going to post? Byk dah inspirational articles and posts yang ku buat for the past few days. (well baru plg tiga buting tu ) Jadi motivator jua aku ane krg. -alamak terlebih sudah- Bh sudah tah ku becakap eh. makin panjang krg post ane. Bh, Im waiting for you guys to post.

Anyway, I hope sedikit sebanyak kamu termotivate dgn what Ive posted today (well not only today lah, for the past few days). There will always be ups and downs in life. So just remember to be yourself; set yourself free from guilts,regrets and fears; and remember the people who care and love you....Be strong and always believe that you can do it.

Lots of Luv,
zaW...

Chayo!!

Always by your side...

Greeting people of earth. Im back to share a lesson i've just learnt tadi with you guys.

30 Seconds Quiz

Don't bother getting a pen and paper... just read... if you can't answer them, just keep going.

1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world.
2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners.
3. Name the last five winners of the Miss America contest.
4. Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer prize.
5. Name the last five Academy Award winners for Best Actor and Actress.

How did you do? The point is, none of us remembers the headliners of yesterday. These are no second-rate achievers. They're the best in their fields. But the applause dies. Awards tarnish. Achievements are forgotten. Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners.

Now here's another quiz. See how you do on this one:

1. Name three teachers who aided your journey through school.
2. Name three friends who helped you through a difficult time.
3. Name five people who have taught you something worth while.
4. Think of a few people who have made you feel appreciated and special.
5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with.

Easier?The lesson?

The people who make a difference in your life aren't the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They're the ones who care.

Cherish the people who care about you, treasure them with all your heart. When you feel alone or when you feel as if the whole world is against you, remember these people who care and love you. They will always be there for you no matter what happens...

"Forever By Your Side"

LoL,lots of luv

zaW

-it'sbeenamonth-

Lyrics Of the Day

Dulu dan Selamanya

Kepada mu ku curahkan
Kepada mu ku buktikan
Segala yang ku janjikan
Dari dulu dan selamanya
Biar musim pun berganti
Namun aku kan kembali

Kepada mu disisi
Bersama lagi hanya kau ku sayangi
Biar hari berganti dan pergi
Kerana ku tahu kau kasihku
Kali ini ku kembali

Dalam alunan mesra sinar pagi
Ku genggam erat tangan mu
Ku bawa bersama, ke alam
Realiti dan fantasi

By the way, c amal performs lagu ane masa our dinner. So yea...Get used to the song, lyrics and melody. It's a nice song.I love it lyke berabis. Sama kalau kamu memahami liriknya lagi bisai. So dalami tah lagu ane. Lawa,cantik bah this song...

P/s: Sama c amal nyanyi lagu 'Bukan diriku' jua.

cHayo!

LoL, (lots of love)
zaW

Just Be Yourself

I found this article quite inspiring so i ve decided to share it with you guys.

Set Yourself Free

Set yourself free from anything that might hinder you in becoming the person you want to be.

Free yourself from the uncertainties about your abilities or the worth of your dreams, from the fears that you may not be able to achieve them or that they won't be what you wanted.

Set yourself free from the past.

The good things from yesterday are still yours in memory; the things you want to forget you will, for tomorrow is only a sunrise away.

Free yourself from regret or guilt, and promise to live this day as fully as you can.

Set yourself free from the expectations of others, and never feel guilty or embarrassed if you do not live up to their standards.

You are most important to yourself; live by what you feel is best and right for you.

Others will come to respect your integrity and honesty.

Set yourself free to simply be yourself, and you will soar higher than you've ever dreamed.

So guys live up your dream, dont live by others expectations. Dont hold back, just reach out and seize your dream. Be yourself and never give up for what you believe in. Live each day to the fullest...

LoL(lots of love),

zaW

P/s: Apanya c zaw ah. bahapakan ku? Nda pa lah sekali sekala bukan selalu ku membari motivation ane. bah chayo...!

This is Us..

From the Left= Ros, Ziemah, Fahizun, Wajeehah, Fyzah, Bunda and Zaw... Hmmm... Fiqahco where were you???

Ohhh. I remember know... Jadi Mascot Gal...

This picture is taken during the National Day.

Bedford ziemah

ziemah, this is Bedford.

hahaha by the way, apa nama sekolah mu? i don't remember.

about the reunion tu, i'll make sure sampat and everyone comes. no worries, we won't laugh if kau kan "berjiwang" since kau kan blayar jua. iatah andang sunyi wah blog ane, kau bisai. hahaha. beautiful school ziemah?hahaha what? nda kau meliat "gelugut" dalam kolam sebalah meja tani makan atu?hahaha. oh yeah, siapa punya gambar tu yang tangan ah? buat nama eh. hahaha menjengkelkan. lurus kah tu ejaan nya? hahaha okey. bah

later,

tidak sunyi lagi,

fyzah memoo

This week

This week is the most busy week in my whole life... Nda plang kali tu ah..?? Macam hari2 jua aku busy ani.. Tapi ani aku macam busy brabis.. Banyak kali sudah aku nda skulah. Macam siuk plang tapinya. Hahahahaah. Palau..

Tapi benar eh... Siuk..

But I dont think dat the teacher do really care since sama jua I'll be gone.. Like Zaw said, "It doesnt matter to you anymore ziemahh...

Hahahahah.. I know Zaw.. Really doesnt matter..

But this few dasys aku rasa macam sedih sja..

I mean I dun expect to leave our beautiful school especially the Geng...
Hahahaha..
I know this is kinda JIWANG but really... I mean it...

Dun laugh okey..

Aku meluahkan prasaan ni becoz I know f aku becakap di skulah like u all surely laugh...;D
Even me pun like laughing nanti...

Hahahahahaah.

Btw I hope that any parties that u geng wanna conduct must be b4 I fly off.. alrite...
I wanna be with u guyz untill the very lassst day to come..

Remember.. Okey.

The day when we were at the Mall!!!

Wow!!! We look extremely awesom!!! And of course fantastic!!!

At the hospital

Well, today its a typical day. Bangun awal2 pagi untuk pigi sekolah.. Except for me.. woke up early in the morning to go to the hospital. I hope everything will be fine.. My medical result!!!! Takut ku eh!!! Now, kami betolak dari rumah like 6.38 a.m. hmmm.... to be exact.... I know.... Awal brabiz- brabiz!!! Hahahahahahaha!!! Mama ku luan bersemangat brabiz....

Nada ken di liat awal pagi2 ani... I mean cute and hot guyz wah... Nada pagi2 ani.. Blm kli durang bangun.. Apakan??? Ken mencuci mata te plang awal2 pagi ani.. haha.

okey... Nada banyak ken di cakapkan ni.. u know pagi2 buta ani..
Hahahahahahaa....

menyalahgunakan blog ini sebagai photoblog gue

my idea of blogging? mempost pictures yang tiada membawa apa-apa makna. mudah dan cepat. 

 

n i'm feeling chinese today :)

n feeling singapore.... :)

gila, pictures ku ani layak masuk websites where they appreciate photography.  :p

yeah... maybe i should go to flickr now. :)  

D missing pers0n

OK, fyzah mem0o.. i kn0w dat u was c0ncernd b0ut me d oder day. well.. 2 b specific on 22nd june time tani d pgs cafe.. i wasnt in d toilet o s0mewhere else. i was waiting dpn hua ho.. haha. membrijap! K, juz wana inf0m u pepol.. I kn0w u all care.. O maybe n0t.. Haha. Nadawah. K, until nex time!

-ziemah-